Summer's here.

And frankly.. I don't really find the right mood. Everything seems to fall apart around me, and life's just stressful and exhausting.
I'm moving to a new city this summer, to study medicine. Already got myself a small, nice apartment, and I'm assigned to my two jobs until I move. So all practical things are just fine, loveley in fact.. So it's my mind and soul which seems to not cope with things.
The last few days I've literally hated company - the people arund me seem to me to be a complete waste of space, with their cheap humour, their small chitchattering.. All blackness and negativity in the fair weather, I am.
I keep yelling at people or wanting to yell at people all the time. And there's no-one to spend time with, everyone's at ther holidays, or some random party, and I don't feel like watching people get wasted and puke their brains out...
And the lonelyness. I know, it's insane, really. I've got a lot of friends being here for me, if I just say the word, and yet, deep down inside I'm just so lonely in the big world.
I miss a simpler life where I didn't have to think all these thoughts. But I can't really remember when I lived such a life.

This sucks...